What?

I went to the "W" to watch my dad perform blues and jazz on stage. He was really good. My sister showed up and sat at my table. The wine was free...



Upstairs was a poetry thing going on. I went for a while to listen. I thought maybe "C" would be performing...but he wasn't there.



My sister and I spent the rest of the night listening to dad, then we went home.

"C" called. He said he missed me terribly and wanted to know what was wrong.
I didn't feel like telling him. I am no good at thorough communication...
I wish I could be different and explain my feelings, but its so difficult for me.
So...of course, I didn't really tell him much. I just said that things seemed to be moving a bit too fast, so I had to get away from it.



He then explained that he will take it as slow as I need for him to...because he has now developed strong feelings for me.
I didn't know what to say. I can't say I really feel the same about him, because I don't know him well enough to even say that. And besides...
there are way too many red flags to overlook.



"Just give it another chance" he said in a very convincing voice "You and I are both artists in our own ways. I write poetry and you paint pictures. We are made to be together"...



But what about the one thousand red flags? Should red flags be overlooked?
I wish there was a rule book I could go by...Yes I love the fact that he writes such beautiful poetry and I love his intelligence! He can be such a brilliant thinker!



I really don't know what to think about it except...I don't want to be rushed into anything...and I've learned that he likes to rush.



"Well, you said something about us being boyfriend and girlfriend right away, and we don't even know each other that well yet" I said.



"Well I would like for you to be my girlfriend, but if its too soon-" he said...



Hell yes its too soon!

Our first "official" date and he has decided that its time to make a commitment?

"Can we start over?" he asked "Please?"

"Only if we can take things slowly" I said.

He didn't reply at all after that

Hmmm...

another red flag?

What is so wrong with taking things slowly?


I just don't understand it.