Dinner at 8

Today I spoke with "Mr.Phd"-the handsome professor.

He said he wants to definitely keep in contact with me. He feels that our keeping in touch will be a great benefit to the both of us. Perhaps hes right. I don't know very many handsome, intelligent professors...and he does have a wonderful sense of business. He has quite a bit of knowledge on alot of things and that is alot of help. Now the part about "Me" being a benefit to him? I'm not sure. Maybe he likes my companionship. I admit...I am happy that he wants to keep in touch with me. Its weird...but

I can't help it. I am so attracted to him. I have this weakness for handsome intelligent professors who gab on and on about intelligent mumbo jumbo...it drives me insane!

I know, its pathetic. Sue me! We had dinner together and talked about our lives. He didnt mention anything about his wife, and I'm not sure if it made me relieved or uncomfortable. Maybe I didn't really want to hear about his wife...then at the same time...what sort of man avoids his marriage? I am not really sure. I did enjoy spending time with him...it was really pleasant...

It feels like a Thursday

I found myself getting along wonderfully with this lady who works directly with KMA manufacturing. Shes very beautiful, sweet and so smart. I found out she is my dad's "mistress"...
The one who was in the middle of my mom and dad's "situation"...



The woman he ran to when he felt my mom wasn't giving him whatever it was that he needed...which was probably more than just rice w/chili at 3am in the morning.



My mom told me today that she'd already figured it out. She didn't seem to be hurt...
but shes really good at hiding her emotions. This isn't my dad's first or only mistress...


We found out later there has been several. I try not to let it bother me. I know my parents marriage is over with and hes technically "single"...Their divorce is final and they are living in separate zip codes...



Am I wrong to like his mistress? I even hugged her! After we went over paperwork, we hugged! I never thought I'd be hugging the woman that my dad "hooks up with"...
But...shes actually really sweet...



Oh well...



"C" was playing alot of silly mind games so I already let him go completely. I saw today that hes "STILL" been calling alot. I erased his number from my phone. I'm hoping that he'll eventually stop calling and hopefully forget my name and what I look like etc...




People tell me that its not too likely to happen...



but I'm hoping it will...

Mujeriego?

I talked with "W"...
Hes an attractive looking italian guy Ive known for 6 months now. He is always talking of getting together on a weekend and seeing the city of NYC...


It sounded nice. I do need to get away for a while...like a small vacation. He always talks of how he cooks great pasta dishes and likes nice wine and great movies.


Somehow in the middle of our conversations, he always manages to say "You are sooo sweet and beautiful. You are like a fairytale dream"...


Its so sweet to hear such beautiful words...but I've heard them before. I'm not quite sure yet if its a line hes using, or if hes genuine...
Hes always talking about all the stuff he wants to buy me, and how bad he wants to impress me...Hes always going on and on about about how he insists that I stay in one of his beautiful lofts in Manhattan, and how he would let me use his credit cards to buy clothes or perfumes or whatever of this and that and this and that and blah blah blah...




then I found out that hes got a girlfriend. Why do men with girlfriends even bother to approach me? Do I look like the chick for cheating or something? Its like I have giant words tattooed on my forehead that say "Come cheat on your lady with me!"



I told "W" that we can still be friends, but not much more than that. He said I'm just playing hard to get and that hes sure that he can change my mind after I go to New York. Why would he think that? Why can't he see that some women just don't want to be with a guy whose already in a committed relationship!

**sighs**