Sentimental

I am really missing my friendship with "D".

I really hate that I can't call her on the telephone anymore...it hurts so bad. It hurts that she won't call me either.

She feels that she must devote and sacrifice absolutely everything to her new inmate boyfriend...WEll except for her spiritual churchsisters.
She always keeps in touch with them, because she feels they are much closer to God than any other friends.

Am I childishly jealous about that?

YES I AM!

IT PISSES ME OFF!!!

Yes it might sound selfish or immature...

but the answer is still "YES"!

No I know I don't go to church anymore. I stopped going years ago.

Does that make me an unacceptable friend?

If I started regularly going to church again...

Would it make me a better person?

Would it make me good enough to associate with?

And what about the situation with the inmate boyfriend?

Would I be good enough to talk to even when hes around?


The whole thing is silly, and it shouldn't bother me...


but it does...