Twice the charm
I spoke with F. for a little while today. I have to admit...I do find him to be very attractive. Hes got this 'Brad Pitt' look going on, except his eyes are a much darker green color and his hair is blonder. So hes like Brad Pitt with dark green eye contacts.
F. always wants to come over to my place and watch movies. Every single time F. and I talk about getting together, he wants to come over to my place. I don't feel comfortable with him in my house all the time. I don't really feel comfortable with any men in my house right now. I would feel better going out to see a movie with him, or maybe to a resteraunt or someplace else. Then maybe a visit or two at my place now and then...but not all the time!
So I decided to just not bother with him.
Hes a liscensed "massage therapist" who makes nice money. Women flock to him, especially rich old women and barbie dolls'. He mentioned giving me a massage. I told him about how my hand was giving me trouble. I do alot of painting on canvas and typing....so my hand muscles get pretty tensed up and achey. I asked him about maybe massaging my hand. He kept on talking about how he needs to have me take off everything to give me a full body massage. I was completely turned off by that. I told him I only needed my hands massaged. Then he mentioned how if hes going to give me a massage, its going to be a "full body" one. So I decided not to get one at all from him. He was so insistant on how it had to be "full body"...
Well, it pissed him off. His ego was crushed to pieces!
Well, I was a little pissed off too. Whats wrong with a simple hand massage? He had also said the massage would be free...Well, a simple free hand massage shouldn't be much trouble right?
He asked to come over to my place this one time. I let him.
He showed up asking if he could smoke some weed in my livingroom, while we watched a movie. I told him no. He kept asking why, and I really had no answer for him other than I didn't want him to.
So then he wanted to smoke it outside, so that my neighbors could see him. He then started being so annoying...He even pulled out a stack of perverted letters girls sent him over the internet. It was such a huge turnoff. I just quietly listened as he went on and on about these freaky letters, and how hot the girls were...and how much they turned him on. I finally politely asked him to leave. Unfortunately, he was so angry he forgot to take his nasty letters with him.
Since that incident, I haven't wanted to see him again. Maybe I was being uptight...or maybe not.
Deep down inside, I had wanted to kiss him. He had such beautiful full lips, and I was so turned on by the scent of his skin...He smelled like he'd just taken a shower, and put on cologne. It was sooo intoxicating!
Well, I was a little pissed off too. Whats wrong with a simple hand massage? He had also said the massage would be free...Well, a simple free hand massage shouldn't be much trouble right?
He asked to come over to my place this one time. I let him.
He showed up asking if he could smoke some weed in my livingroom, while we watched a movie. I told him no. He kept asking why, and I really had no answer for him other than I didn't want him to.
So then he wanted to smoke it outside, so that my neighbors could see him. He then started being so annoying...He even pulled out a stack of perverted letters girls sent him over the internet. It was such a huge turnoff. I just quietly listened as he went on and on about these freaky letters, and how hot the girls were...and how much they turned him on. I finally politely asked him to leave. Unfortunately, he was so angry he forgot to take his nasty letters with him.
Since that incident, I haven't wanted to see him again. Maybe I was being uptight...or maybe not.
Deep down inside, I had wanted to kiss him. He had such beautiful full lips, and I was so turned on by the scent of his skin...He smelled like he'd just taken a shower, and put on cologne. It was sooo intoxicating!
I felt a little bit uncomfortable thinking about the nude pics S. sent to me. She said he sent them to her a couple of weeks ago. Wow! It was almost as if I had nude photos of Brad Pitt!
I guess I was a bit turned on and disgusted at the same time. I was disgusted because in two of the pics, there was nicely manicured female hands wrapped around his manhood.
Evidently this same female had pics of him in a swimming pool with her hands around it again! Obviously, this woman coudn't get enough of him...
He mentioned something about hooking up with me again...
starting everything all over...
I just don't feel comfortable around him...
is that bad?
