Feeling Unlucky...

I've been really wanting to have my own gallery for such a long time. Nothing huge or fancy...just a compfortable place to display local struggling artists work and have poetry readings and occasional live music from local bands....

I can't say I'm looking to become rich or anything because I am not...Art is my deepest passion and it always has been. I also want to be able to donate a large percentage and give to people who need help in the community. Abuse victims, underpriveleged kids...



I am still working out the details, and trying to find a space around the "Trolleyhop" district. It has been very difficult to find a place...

The art world is a very picky place...



Most of the galleries and shops downtown from East Market Street district to the borderline Highlands areas are extremely stuckup snobs who also have serious racial+social economic class issues....the kind of people who aren't really interested in what your name is, the actual work of artists or anything else... but they are more into asking such questions as...

"So what is it that you do exactly?"
and
"Do you have a Phd?"
(and perhaps even the shade of one's skin)...or if your not of the gay or bisexual elite...or sometimes they are just plain mean to people for no real reason at all. Its weird.

I found one place along Market Street that is renting a storefront for eleven hundred dollars per month.

I told the woman how I was very interested in renting the space.
She asked me more about what it would be for etc...

I told her that I wanted it for an art gallery and to have a percentage to go to a cause like "The Center For Women and Families"...because its a place that has alot of abuse victims etc...





The woman said "I am sorry but they already have a place for that. They have a new place already doing that on the corner of Market street. Okay? Goodbye..." and then she hung up the telephone on me.

I didn't know 'The Center For Women And Families" already had a place? I still would like to do something for such a cause... There are other places in the city that have people that need help...So why was the woman on the telephone so quick to just hang up? The sign on her building said "For Lease"...and I was just looking for place to lease... I felt a bit discouraged for a minute...but then I took a deep breath and moved on.

I called another number that was a small garage that had a large sign on the building saying "Leasing" ...

The guy answered and in a very rude voice saying "I don't know what youre talking about. This place isn't for rent" ... and he quickly hung up the telephone.

Wow...

should I give up on this dream or keep trying? I don't want to give up...but sometimes it feels hopeless...